she let the party

did she leave the party cuz she was drunk
  or was just never in mood to party?
did she leave the party when he hit on her
  or did she have a bitch fight?
did she leave the bash cuz the DJ was unill
  or its cuz she cant wiggle, and get down every time the beat drops?
did she fail to drop it like its hot
  or cuz her love dance is like whoa-that got into her head?
did she leave cuz he spanked her
  or did she leave cuz she tripped tryna break dance on her high heels?
did she leave tha party cuz she kissed a gyal and she liked it
  or is it plain madness that got the better of her?
did she leave cuz i drank one two many
  or i was just being point blank, fallin in love with froth- beer froth?
did she leave the club cuz it was getting too stuffy
  or is it cuz it was getting late?
did she stumble upon her ex, a ghost
  or is it's cuz she stumbled upon a 'sausage funga' that she left?

she says i flirted too much, she says i never cared.
she says i wasn't listening to her,
she says i slapped her-it demoralized her,depressed her, disgusted her.
she says she tried to harmer some sense into my conscious
but i never sensed the senses.
she says i mocked her, provoked her wits, invoked her adrenaline to unbearable levels.
she says i tore her dress,
 she says i tried to force myself into her- she says it was a public disgrace.

am trynna remember, tryn to recall y she left the bash
y she left without me, y she cried all night
y she is cryn even now,
then it hits me.
The feeling is irreconcilable with the dictates of nature
the feeling is hollow, wallowing, hooting in my brain, body and soul
the feelin is thirsting my quench, twisting, twirling,irritating,  hurricaning, gull bitter.

never should i have strolled away from her,
if i knew, i would have listened to her
wish i never gave in to Marry-anne
wish i had resisted my urges-primitive urges
wish i can erase the scene when Mary-Jane bumped on us
busy makin out in the car park
and she thought Mary-anne was her BEST FRIEND.